Waking up at 1 a.m. is no fun. It's a time when I think, "Gack, I should be deeply asleep for at least another 4 (four) hours. What curse am I living under?"
"Should I turn on the light and read? Should I get out of bed and turn on the computer? Should I lay and meditate? What would be best for the person who sleeps next to me and for the others who are sleeping in this house?"
It would be so much easier if I slept and lived alone, I wouldn't have to care about my partners' rest. I could just sit in bed and read, or get up work on my noisy projects. But I took on the originating relationship 25 years ago and the rest shortly thereafter and I'd like it to retain them into the future. It'd be so much easier just sleeping somewhere else, but where else? The couch? Outdoors? I hate having to move from this physically comfortable zone!
Why can't I sleep through the night, what wakes me up? Why does my body do this? Is this natural? There seems to be plenty of health literature on insomnia, but I don't want to add more man-made chemicals (athe usual solution) to my body to address what should be a natural process. But should I? Should I break the pattern with the meds and then would I get conditioned to need that substance? Gee, I just wish I could sleep. Sleep is so basic.
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